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Friday, May 1, 2009Y
Being expressive or Over-expressive?

I received quite a lot of complains from my friends as for why I'm not updating my blog, Well, tee-hee, I'm lazy to update it. Don't know and don't ask why. Maybe my bones are getting heavier each day or i'm just worn down by lectures in Swinburne. Bah~ Let's head to the point.

Today (last night actually), I was a little bit down. Quite many unexpected things happened in just a few hours, some personal some general matters. And now I'm having insomnia, maybe because I sleep too much during daylight, causing me to be nocturnal -.-

I really wanted to say sorry to her because she has been very patient with me for the past 7 months. Well, to be frank with you guys, I'm quite a sensitive boy. Little things which is related to me will make me be doubtful and start thinking negatively and I REALLY hate this sick-attitude in me. I don't know why or where I developed this #$%^# attitude, but she has been very VERY patient with me. Maybe I just want her to be the perfect one, but sometimes being a perfectionst comes with disadvantages too eh? I always have a feeling of being unsecured, afraid that I will one day eventually lose her due to other reasons that I will not elaborate here. I'm not trying to say that I don't trust her, but sometimes it is hard for me to trust the 'trust' where there are many other reasons clouding it. But she never got angry or hate me about my so called 'sick-attitude'. She was always trying to clear my mind and clarify her statement(of course in a sweet way) so as to prevent me from being sensitive and negative. I know it's quite annoying and frustrating to bare with it. I never want to be like that, hope you understand, and I'm extremely sorry about it, I really do...I hope that it will not stop us from being together, because I really REALLY love you very much!! *hugs*

By the way, thanks to Fiona, I'm literally addicted to soft musics, especially the songs by Yiruma. Thanks for the songs tortoise (Fiona's nickname)!



P/s: To Aaron Lim who is going to KL to further his studies, bon voyage~! We will surely miss a DotA 'leg' (in chinese) like you. And sorry because last night I killed you too many times , 15 I think? xD All the best and do keep in touch~!


-Over and Out-
(Emotional Kelvin)

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