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Thursday, May 28, 2009Y
Unlucky Day(s)!

Gosh, is it my luck or what? So many unlucky things happened to me in just 1 night. Well, not actually 1 night, it's 2 to be exact.

Alright, lemme head straight to the point. First, my telephone line got fried by lightning strikes yesterday. I put an 's' in front of strike is because my house wasn't struck by lightning at all, but somehow my telephone line got fried by it. I remembered it was in the afternoon when me and my friend went for a haircut and the rain started pouring, followed by the rumbling of thunders. When I got home, the main telephone line got fried and couldn't even be used to call. There goes my internet too. Another unlucky yet funny incident happened at the same time. Guess what, my TV got fried too, making me unable to play my ps2. Although I got an extra TV downstairs, it's quite a burden to bring it up to my room again though. Just now I said it's funny because ONLY my TV got fried, but not the others. I got woofers, modems and laptop adapters in that power source but ONLY my TV got fried. And the funniest thing is that the TV is made from CHINA! Even my woofers which is connected to the same socket as the TV wasn't affected at all, still working well, funny eh? So guys, beware of TV appliances made from CHINA xD

Then today, after I got back from Swinburne, I was happy to see that my line was fixed already. But that's not the end of it. My Sony VAIO laptop, just bought about half a year ago, ended up haywired. My laptop wasn't able to startup because one of the boot files went missing all of a sudden. I did troubleshooting but it was to no avail either. Tomorrow I'm bringing it for repair, hope that my files in it don't get reformatted. I haven't backup my important files into my handy drive yet, and the worse part is I have 2 more assignments to be completed within 3 weeks time, gosh this is just so not my day~~! Hope my files are not reformatted, or else I'll be K.O-ed! I have to use my 5 years old old laptop again, imagine how much different it is from my VAIO laptop (>.<)" And now I have problem connecting to the internet because the connection is not stable. Sigh...The least thing I should be happy about is that I'm still able to play dota(very laggy when using my old laptop) with my friends and chat with her online ^.^

Oh well, hope that today all of this will end quickly and painless. Pray that my laptop will be recovered as soon as possible *fingers crossed*

P/s: I would also like to thank my honey because I was so fired up just now that I literally banged the table due to angriness. But she was there to calm me down and accompanied me through the angry moments PATIENTLY. With her patience and care, I manage to came back to my senses and became normal again. Thank you honey! *hugs*

-Over and Out-
(Speechless Kelvin)

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Monday, May 25, 2009Y
Freed from the onslaught!

Lol, why onsluaght? Well, I call exams as onslaughts because the examinations really kill, and the worse part is the exams are set at odd times, 3 exams are all at night! If you guys read my previous post I'm sure you'll get what I meant. Anyways, the exams are over, left the finals in another 3 weeks or so. But well, at least I can rejoice and break a leg, it's been quite hectic and stressful for the past 3 weeks, no joking. Whenever I took five, i'll always think about the upcoming exams, whether I finished covering up the topics or not, yada yada yada - Exam Fever ~.~

Since it's all over already, I'm gonna indulge myself into some games and outings. Well, tchyeah, I've got planning in the afternoon already, fast eh? Lolx! Gonna hang out with besties for a movie and have a long chit-chat in a cafe I guess.

Gosh! Look at the time, I must get ready now. I will update my blog once I got the time and idea. Catch ya'll later~

-Over and Out-
(Relieved Kelvin)

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Sunday, May 17, 2009Y
Emotion v.s Reality

What the freak, I really don't know what's happening to me. Is it because of stress? Or because of certain unexplainable feeling developing deep in me. I myself too am not sure what is the cause. I hate being clouded with the feeling of hatred, jealousy and despair. And it got worse if it's all mixed up into 1 that cause me to have an emotional breakdown. I tend to be so emotionless, and destructive. Little things that made me unhappy will cause me to be engulfed in flames, while unpleasant memories or encounters will make me feel dejected. Maybe I'm overeacting or so, but all of these feelings are spontaneous, without prior notice I'm already begining to feel emotional. Words that came out from my mouth didn't go through my brain at all, and therefore my harsh attitude hurt the people that I cared so much. And the sad thing is my old method of not getting emotional is by sleeping. And it didn't work! Gosh!

How nice if we are able to erase our memories and turn over a new leaf? Start all over again from scratch, forgetting the past and fully utilize the future to be a fruitful one. Sometimes I really wished that those nuisance can really get out of my life because almost all the problems and miseries that happen in my life is due to them. It's quite ironic actually to let 'them' take control of your whole instead of your self-consciousness. I seriously felt so down until I feel like rendering on all the pain and sadness. Futhermore saturday is the day that I supposed to be enjoying it with her, but sadly to say I've accidentally hurt her. I always try to avoid chatting with my cherished ones as to not hurt their feelings, but it seems that avoiding too can be torturing as well. Sigh...Luckily she understood what I was going through and instead of being disappointed with me, she gave me air so that I could breathe again. *hugs* <3

So, to those who helped me to pull myself back together again, especially my honey, my 2 foster sisters and Chee Ling (ex-classmate), thank you for being there with me. I know my words seems to be a little harsh while chatting with you guys, I seriously didn't mean it at all. Oh well, just hope that history won't repeat itself tomorrow when I open my eyes. *fingers crossed*


-Over and Out-
(Emotional Kelvin)

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009Y
Study-Mode Activitated

Lolx, I know the title of this post sounds weird, but this month I will be activating my 'study mode' (doesn't sound like me eh?) This month, Swinburne will be bombarding 5 exams, which are Engineering Maths Quiz, Engineering Maths Test, Physics Test, Information Technology Test and General Maths Test. (Note : Yeap, There's 2 papers for Engineering maths, the quiz and test.) Besides that, we also have 2 assignments to be done, an English Arguementative Essay and Information Technology Web Designing assignment.

Engineering Maths itself is one hell of a killer. The lecturer always 'solo-laugh' (quoted from my coursemate Boon Han) while teaching, leaving us students completely blank with whatever he was teaching. AND, his voice is miserably soft, I think the mice could win him (metaphors). I'm using soft is because his voice is SOFT, not LOW! Meaning he talks like a girl's pitch although he has a sound of a man -.- So thcyeah, I'm proud to say that my Engineering Maths will be a total disaster this time *polishes coffin* x.x

Physics and General Maths test ain't that bad, so far i'm able to keep up with the pace. Just hope that I don't get into those frequent careless mistakes that I always did in the previous exams. But lucky for us, IT test is basically testing one's adaptation in using Microsoft Words and Excel. Not much of hassle there too. But guess what, all of these exams are cramped into 2 miserable weeks. And we have to go back to Swinburne in the afternoon and night just to sit for those exams. *sigh*

Assignments can really wore you down. Luckily for Foundation in Engineering and Science students, we only got 2 assignments. I heard from my friend who is taking up Foundation in Designing got 4 assignments, but with less exams of course. I have to hand in an argumentative essay in 2 weeks time from now and another 6-page web designing assigment next month. And mark my words, these assignments are not peanuts, it may sound easy but it's actually tougher than it looks. The arguementative itself requires you to do research to collect evidences and proofs to complement your arguements in the essay while not plagiarizing. The 6 page web-design requires us to create a website for a bakery to promote their confactioneries online. Tough eh? Welcome to university life (>.<)"

I gotta strive to achieve a Distinction or a High Distinction if possible. Don't wanna waste money on re-sitting or re-taking the subject again. God bless me~ *fingers crossed*

I'll sidetrack a little here. This coming Saturday Swinburne will be having a ball called the SwinNight, I thought of bringing her as my date that night, but too bad the tickets got sold off in an instant. I remembered asking Joanne, my coursemate to book 2 tickets for me but she gave it to her *erHem* (clears throat) instead xD Sigh! Oh well~ Enjoy yourselves dude~!


P/s : I miss my honey very much =P

-Over and Out-
(Stressed Kelvin)

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009Y
Tags! *starts banging head on table*

I don't know I've done how many tags within this 2 months ~.~ Anyways, I was tagged by my other mei Gloria Law. Well..erm..here it goes (-.-)"


Upload your fave picture and answer the question below.



Why did you choose the photo?
- No Idea why? Maybe because she told me that this photo looks nice?

When was the last time you ate pizza?
- 2 weeks ago I guess?

The last song you've listened to?
- Halo by Beyonce

What are you doing besides answering this tag?
- Chatting

Besides your own name, how do you like people to call you?
- Panda Bear (*secret*). Boss, Tauke (Because of my looks last time, serious and old ~.~), F**ker (Because of my last name which ALMOST rhymes with it), Pingu (A nickname given by Fiona).

Tag 6 person, the following questions are related to them.
1)Fiona Ong a.k.a Tortoise
2)Joanne Lim
3)Jacqueleen Kho
4)Julia a.k.a Suku Mei
5)Jessie Chai
6)Lee Zi Sing

Who is number 1?
- My close friend and foster sister from Klang

No.3 has a relationship with?
- So far....I don't know?

Say something about number 5.
- She loves to hit people! Very aggressive XD

How about number 4?
- My extremely close foster sister in Kuching.

Who is number 2?
- My coursemate~

Say something to number 6.
- Yo? ~.~ (lame)

That's about it! Gotta continue my assignment.....Killing me~!!! XD

-Over and Out-
(Busy Kelvin)

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Monday, May 4, 2009Y
Happy 8th month anniversary ^.^

It's our 8th month together, a lot of things had happened between us. Some are painful while some are sweet. She looks prettier and prettier as time goes by and I'm glad to have her in my life. It's sad that we could barely meet each other, but my love for her wlll never change. To love someone requires a lot of sacrifice and trust and that is called unconditional love. I still remembered Mr.Yap (my physics teacher from secondary school) told me that true love is all about willing to give without wanting any repayment. I believe this is what all the couples do in order to enrich their relationship with someone they love.

To be frank, I sometimes too am selfish myself, but when I recall, I've sacrificed quite a lot for her, some are obvious and some are not. All of these sacrifices are spontaneous, and I never regretted for doing so. At 12a.m. just now I sms-ed her to wish her happy anniversary, and she replied to me that I've shown her the true meaning of love. I'm not trying to brag about it, but I really felt happy when she said that. Although she is still young, I still could clearly see that she is trying so hard to hold our relationship together. Thank you honey, and I love you very much! I'll cherish our relationship alongside with you forever! ^-^

-Over and Out-
(Madly-in-Love Kelvin) =P




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Friday, May 1, 2009Y
Being expressive or Over-expressive?

I received quite a lot of complains from my friends as for why I'm not updating my blog, Well, tee-hee, I'm lazy to update it. Don't know and don't ask why. Maybe my bones are getting heavier each day or i'm just worn down by lectures in Swinburne. Bah~ Let's head to the point.

Today (last night actually), I was a little bit down. Quite many unexpected things happened in just a few hours, some personal some general matters. And now I'm having insomnia, maybe because I sleep too much during daylight, causing me to be nocturnal -.-

I really wanted to say sorry to her because she has been very patient with me for the past 7 months. Well, to be frank with you guys, I'm quite a sensitive boy. Little things which is related to me will make me be doubtful and start thinking negatively and I REALLY hate this sick-attitude in me. I don't know why or where I developed this #$%^# attitude, but she has been very VERY patient with me. Maybe I just want her to be the perfect one, but sometimes being a perfectionst comes with disadvantages too eh? I always have a feeling of being unsecured, afraid that I will one day eventually lose her due to other reasons that I will not elaborate here. I'm not trying to say that I don't trust her, but sometimes it is hard for me to trust the 'trust' where there are many other reasons clouding it. But she never got angry or hate me about my so called 'sick-attitude'. She was always trying to clear my mind and clarify her statement(of course in a sweet way) so as to prevent me from being sensitive and negative. I know it's quite annoying and frustrating to bare with it. I never want to be like that, hope you understand, and I'm extremely sorry about it, I really do...I hope that it will not stop us from being together, because I really REALLY love you very much!! *hugs*

By the way, thanks to Fiona, I'm literally addicted to soft musics, especially the songs by Yiruma. Thanks for the songs tortoise (Fiona's nickname)!



P/s: To Aaron Lim who is going to KL to further his studies, bon voyage~! We will surely miss a DotA 'leg' (in chinese) like you. And sorry because last night I killed you too many times , 15 I think? xD All the best and do keep in touch~!


-Over and Out-
(Emotional Kelvin)

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