Last night was quite a tough day for me. I'm so sorry for hurting you honey, I really am sorry. Sigh... Maybe I was careless enough to say something out like that, but I seriously didn't mean to say it out. I just feel as though I was overwhelmed by disappointment until I couldn't control what I was uttering. And because of that I accidentally hurt my honey so deeply.

It was when I was on my way fetching my mum, I received a call from her saying what happened to me because I was disappointed at that time. I'll cut the story because it's our personal issue. Then all of a sudden I was bombarding all my feelings, piercing her heart deep enough until she hung up my phone without saying a single word. I was so shocked and could not believe what I just said to her. I kept calling her because I was so worried that I overdid it but she never want to answer my calls. I was so tense, worried and sad until I sped the whole journey back home just to send my mother back. My mother scolded me for speeding up to 120 km/h without even me noticing it. I wasn't aware that I was actually speeding so fast. I even jumped the red lights, two traffic lights to be exact.

After sending my mum back, I rushed to her house hoping that I could directly apologize to her. I still remembered that was about 11.45p.m when I reached her house. I called her and express my apologies to her. Bursting with tears and fear, I explained the whole situation and plead for her forgiveness over and over again. We have been for almost a year and a half, and this is the very first time I've hurt her so deeply.

Thank God she finally forgave me. I don't know how many thanks should I give to my honey because I never met anyone so willingly forgive another person when he or she is badly hurt. Honey, thanks so much for giving me another chance! I know you've been very patient with me all these while, hubby really appreciate it! ^.^

I couldn't really sleep because I am still a little traumatized after last night's incident. That will be my first, and also my very last nightmare. I'm glad that it's all over. I dare not imagine what will happen to me if my honey were to not forgive me for what I've said and done. Thank God *Pray*

♥ A message to my honey ♥ : There are many things in my life that I want to change for you, but sometimes these changes are too heavy for me to carry alone. So I hope that you could bear the pain and bitterness with me, give me your unconditional love and tender care for me to be your perfect hubby in life =)